I Can

I had somewhat of an 'epiphany' yesterday. It would be an understatement to say that this deployment has been a learning experience for me (and Drew). If anything, it's been an eye opener. Over the last eight months I have learned so much about myself. I can be lazy especially if I sit down after work. I like structure and schedules. I get upset when it gets messed up. I don't like to be alone, but I do enjoy quiet moments. I get anxious and irritated when I don't get sleep. I don't like going to weddings alone, but I will. I second guess everything about Lexi. It's okay to ask for help - and people will help if you ask. I appreciate other people's opinions/advice because... I don't trust myself or give myself enough credit. But, in reality, I CAN. Yes, I can do things. I can cut the grass. I can hang curtains. I can fix a scanner. I can fix a warping fence. I can keep Lexi safe and healthy and yes... I CAN cut down a tree!And, I can do it myself. I am stronger and more independent than I have been giving myself credit for, which is funny, because I've always been told how independent I was as a toddler. Yet, I seemed to have forgotten that as I've gotten older. Now, I really know.. anything is possible.
ps. I should explain that a portion of the tree snapped from the winds the other night and I wanted to get it down before more bad weather came and sent it through a neighbor's house.